Tasha – December 2024

 

The man in one nineteen takes his tea all alone.
Mornings we all rise to wireless Verdi cries.
I’m hearing opera through the door.
The souls of men and women, impassioned all.
Their voices climb and fall; battle trumpets call.
I fill the bath and climb inside, singing.
He will not touch their pastry
But every day they bring him more.
Gold from the breakfast tray, I steal them all away
And then go and eat them on the shore.
I draw a jackal-headed woman in the sand,
Sing of a lover’s fate sealed by jealous hate
Then wash my hand in the sea.
With just three days more I’d have just about learned the entire score to Aida.
Holidays must end as you know.
All is memory taken home with me:
The opera, the stolen tea, the sand drawing, the verging sea, all years ago.

 

Changes – October 2024

Well you’re just across the street
Looks a mile to my feet
I want to go to you
Funny how I’m nervous still
I’ve always been the easy kill
I guess I always will
Could it be that everything goes round by chance
Or only one way that it was always meant to be
You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say
Hey hey, hey hey
I know what I should do but I just can’t walk away
I can picture your face well
From the bar in my hotel
I wish I’d go to you
I’ll pick up, put down the phone
Like your favorite Heatmeiser song goes
It’s just like being alone
Oh god please don’t tell me this has been in vain
I need answers for what all the waiting I’ve done means
You kill me, you’ve got some nerve but can’t face your mistakes
Hey hey, hey hey
I know what I should do but I just can’t turn away
(Away, away)
So go on love
Leave while there’s still hope for escape
You gotta take what you can these days
There’s so much ahead
And so much regret
I know what you want to say
I know it but can’t help feeling differently
I loved you
And I should have said it
Tell me just what has it ever meant
I can’t help it baby, this is who I am
Sorry but I can’t just go turn off how I feel
You kill me, you build me up but just to watch me break
Hey hey, hey hey
I know what I should do but I just can’t walk away

Another Year – June 2024


Last time I talked to you
You were lonely and out of place
You were looking down on me
Lost out in space
We laid underneath the stars
Strung out and feeling brave
I watched the red orange glow
I watched you float away
Down here in the atmosphere
Garbage and city lights
You’ve gone to save your tired soul
You’ve gone to save their lives
I turned on the radio
To find you on satellite
I’m waiting for this sky to fall
I’m waiting for a sign
Hope you remember me
When you’re home sick and need a change
I miss your purple hair
I miss the way you taste
I know you’ll come back someday
On a bed of nails, I’ll wait
I’m praying that you don’t burn out
Or fade away
All we are
Is all so far
You’re falling back to me
You’re a star that I can see, yeah
I know you’re out there
Somewhere out there
You’re falling out of reach
Defying gravity, yeah
I know you’re out there
Somewhere out there
You’re falling back to me
You’re a star that I can see, yeah
I know you’re out there
Somewhere out there

Winter – December 2023

Now, the time of the year
Is finally here
It’s the time when I spend
All my hours in fear
Emptiness just comes and goes
Hopefully, it doesn’t show

Voices calling my name
Deep inside of my brain
They don’t stop ’cause
They’re trying to drive me insane
I don’t know why you went away
Ooh, the memories will never fade

Like the stars in the sky,
I can still see in your eyes
It’s the same old pattern
That never dies
I can’t seem to leave behind
This emptiness inside my mind

There’s a mist in the air
And the feeling is bare,
Keeps me dreaming of you
It just isn’t fair
I don’t know why you went away
Ooh, the memories will never fade

Gone – July 2023

Don’t know what you’ve got ’til it’s goneThe thrill of the chase then it’s goneOnly the hurt to prove that it ever went onAnd life is a wonderful thingWhen you’re humming the words to a love songDo what you want to do be who you want to beWhen I’m in your arms I’m strongThere’s nowhere I’d rather beWe shine for liberty, life and the pursuit of pleasureGone and blown it all, how can you say“It doesn’t matter much to me?”A dumb mistake too much to payA shattered heart in love’s debrisGone and blown it all and then you say“This isn’t happening to me”A dumb mistake too much to payA shattered heart in love’s debrisAnd how the days have flown too few and fastThey said it wasn’t meant to lastA dumb mistake too much to payA shattered heart in love’s debris

Champions – June 2023

Yeah, you could be the greatest, you can be the best
You can be the King Kong banging on your chest
You could beat the world, you could beat the war
You could talk to God, go banging on his door
You can throw your hands up, you can beat the clock (yeah)
You can move a mountain, you can break rocks
You could be a master, don’t wait for luck
Dedicate yourself and you gon’ find yourself
Standing in the hall of fame (yeah)
And the world’s gonna know your name (yeah)
‘Cause you burn with the brightest flame (yeah)
And the world’s gonna know your name (yeah)
And you’ll be on the walls of the hall of fame
You can go the distance, you can run the mile
You can walk straight through hell with a smile
You could be a hero, you could get the gold
Breaking all the records they thought never could be broke
Yeah, do it for your people, do it for your pride
How you ever gonna know if you never even try?
Do it for your country, do it for your name
‘Cause there’s gonna be a day when you’re
Standing in the hall of fame (yeah)
And the world’s gonna know your name (yeah)
‘Cause you burn with the brightest flame (yeah)
And the world’s gonna know your name (yeah)
And you’ll be on the walls of the hall of fame

Rain – April 2023

This circus is falling down on its knees
The big top is crumbling down
It’s raining in Baltimore fifty miles east
Where you should be, no one’s around
I need a phone call
I need a raincoat
I need a big love
I need a phone call
These train conversations are passing me by
And I don’t have nothing to say
You get what you pay for
But I just had no intention of living this way
I need a phone call
I need a plane ride
I need a sunburn
I need a raincoat
And I get no answers
And I don’t get no change
It’s raining in Baltimore, baby
But everything else is the same
There’s things I remember and things I forget
I miss you
I guess that I should
Three thousand five hundred miles away
But what would you change if you could?
I need a phone call
Maybe I should buy a new car
I can always hear a freight train
If I listen real hard
And I wish it was a small world
Because I’m lonely for the big towns
I’d like to hear a little guitar
I think it’s time to put the top down
I need a phone call
I need a raincoat

Home – Sept 2022

Take that look of worry
I’m an ordinary man
They don’t tell me nothing
So I find out what I can
There’s a fire that’s been burning
Right outside my door
I can’t see but I feel it
And it helps to keep me warm
So I, I don’t mind
No I, I don’t mind

Seems so long I’ve been waiting
Still don’t know what for
There’s no point escaping
I don’t worry anymore
I can’t come out to find you
I don’t like to go outside
They can’t turn off my feelings
Like they’re turning off a light
But I, I don’t mind
No I, I don’t mind
Oh I, I don’t mind
No I, I don’t mind

So take, take me home
Cos I don’t remember
Take, take me home
Cos I don’t remember
Take, take me home
Cos I don’t remember
Take, take me home, oh lord
Cos I’ve been a prisoner all my life
And I can say to you

Take that look of worry, mine’s an ordinary life
Working when it’s daylight
And sleeping when it’s night
I’ve got no far horizons
I don’t wish upon a star
They don’t think that I listen
Oh but I know who they are
And I, I don’t mind
No I, I don’t mind
Oh I, I don’t mind
No I, I don’t mind

So take, take me home
Cos I don’t remember
Take, take me home
Cos I don’t remember
Take, take me home
Cos I don’t remember
Take, take me home, oh lord
Well I’ve been a prisoner all my life
And I can say to you

But I don’t remember
Take, take me home…

A Thousand Years – June 2022

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave?
How can I love when I’m afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone?
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What’s standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

Hanalei – April 2022

I miss the kiss of treachery
The shameless kiss of vanity
The soft and the black and the velvety
Up tight against the side of me
And mouth and eyes and heart all bleed
And run in thickening streams of greed
As bit by bit, it starts the need
To just let go, my party piece
Yeah, I miss the kiss of treachery
The shameless kiss before I feed
The stench of a love for younger meat
And the sound it makes when it cuts in deep
The holding up on bended knees
The addiction of duplicities
As bit by bit, it starts the need
To just let go, my party piece
But I never said I would stay to the end
I leave you with babies and hoping for secrecy
Screaming like this in the hope of sincerity
Scream with me over and over and over
I leave you with photographs, pictures of trickery
Stains on the carpet and stains on the scenery
Songs about happiness murmured in dreams
And we both of us knew how the ending would be
So it’s all come back round to breaking apart again
Breaking apart like I’m made up of glass again
Making it up behind my back again
Making it afraid for the fear of sleep again
Pushed in deep to bare bone again
Take him outside like he’s all on his own again
Round and round and round, it’s coming apart again
Over and over and over
Now that I know that I’m breaking to pieces
I’ll pull out my heart and I’ll feed it to anyone
Crying for comfort, crocodiles cry
For the love of the crowd and the three cheers from everyone
Dropping through sky, through the glass of the roof
Through the roof of your mouth, through the mouth of your eye
Through the eye of the needle, it’s easier for me
To get closer to heaven than ever feel whole again
I never said I would stay to the end
I’d leave you with babies and hoping for secrecy
Screaming like this in the hole of sincerity
Scream with me over and over and over
I leave you with photographs, pictures of trickery
And stains on the carpet and stains on the memory
Songs about happiness murmured in dreams
And we both of us knew how the end always is
How the end always is